Feeling Lost

Feeling Lost
feeling lost

I am officially lost.

In fact, you know you are officially lost when you receive an email from one of your trade groups and you have no idea why they sent you a particular email, or how this invitation to join a group within the group is different from other groups within the trade group, or worse…how to even respond to the invitation.

And I do mean literally…I could not respond using the method of response they prefer.  If I hit the response button, the screen goes blank.  If I copy and paste the email addresses I receive an *undelivered* message in return.   To whom do I address my questions?  Heck, I am so lost I don’t even know the right questions to ask.

See?  It is not easy being lost.  And it is only Monday.  I can hope it will get better as the week goes on, but instinct, and past experience, leads me to believe it will only get worse.

If Mondays start out right, the week is guaranteed to be okay.  But, if the week begins with trying to untangle a confusing issue, then I know from past experience the rest of the week will slide into chaos.  Simple explanation for this phenomenon?  I hate confusion and the feeling of incompetence when it comes to technology.  I will spend all day either figuring out what I am supposed to do with this new invitation/email, or waiting for a more competent computer person to arrive home and lead me through the steps.

And, if past history is any guide…frustration after a few hours will set in. I will feel angry, very angry.  Then, when this competent computer person patiently shows me what I am doing wrong, I will become more upset that I allowed a lack of computer competency to ruin a perfectly fine, albeit rainy, day.

Looking deeper though, there is an easier explanation for why I allow frustrations to boil over.  I cannot trust that everything happens for a reason.  I cannot trust that what is lost will be found…at some time, on His time.  I am impatient, I am quick to flare up with self-recrimination, and I am dogged…some would call say stubborn…when it comes to trying to find a solution on my own.

Another reason for feeling lost is the impending arrival of the holiday season.  One week will herald in Advent! As usual – I am at a loss to find my candles bought on sale, in January, and packed away in boxes which never were organized…even though organizing these boxes were my number one resolution of 2013.  I guess I lost that one somewhere in between Easter, my son’s wedding, and a flooded basement.  Yes, 2013 resolutions, like many other resolutions over the years became misplaced and forgotten.

As my husband cheerfully points out though creating my 2014 resolutions will be easier.

I already know number one 2014 Resolution.   Being lost is not something to become frustrated over. Sometimes it is the pathway to discovering new friends, better ideas, and less stress.  If nothing else, being lost gives you a wonderful excuse to leave everything behind and spend the day doing something you never thought you would…

Minus the guilt.


About Carol Bannon

Member of iCatholic community, Catholic Writers Guild, married with 4 children. Author of A Handshake From Heaven, a Catholic book on the Eucharist and the Handshake From Heaven Lesson Plan Book, currently available through Amazon. Also a contributor to Catholic Mom and an avid reader.
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2 Responses to Feeling Lost

  1. Jodi says:

    Hi Carol,

    I can hear your voice as I read this. Thank you for this gift of feeling lost. There are many times I feel lost and right now is one. I do not feel alone and lost on my own after reading this. Jodi


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