I think I am going to be very happy this month.
February 2013 had the Superbowl (my team lost, but I still enjoyed the commercials for the most part). We have two birthdays in February, my grandson’s and my sister’s. Both of them are needed on a daily basis for my sanity to stay intact. One laughs at everything I tell him, and the other commiserates with everything I tell her. That is what I consider having balance in one’s life.
February 2013 is also a month where I can finally stay home for a while and put all the objects scattered around back in place. Yes, I am one of those people who finds it difficult to let go of the twinkling lights on top of my cupboards – which I flick on every morning to soften the darkness as I stumble towards the coffeepot. I also haven’t finished burning my Yankee Candle Christmas Eve scented candles and refuse to put my long-stem Gold Christmas Candlesticks away until I do; and since they are towering over my New England Angel of Joy, she too is still nestled on the mantle. Pictures received from family and friends still adorn my refrigerator, resplendent in all their holiday finery. Stuffed Santas, Christmas teddies, holiday story books with worn pages – all of these are buried under our grandson’s bed…not to mention miscellaneous toy soldiers, candy wrappers, and discarded wrapping paper.
No, I am in no hurry to banish the memories of family, laughter, peace, and joy that the season of Christmas brought into our lives but February means it is time. As much as I love December and all its confusion and fuss, I find myself looking forward to Lent. Not because the three-week long Christmas food splurge has resulted in a not-so-subtle-climb in pounds, but because I am hungering for a different kind of peace. The peace that comes with making amends with God, myself, and others. Lent is my time to reflect on how I have tried to spread His Word, and all the times I have failed. It is a time to put away the frivolity and concentrate on my future relationship with God. It is my time to find out exactly who I want to see when I look in the mirror, where I want to be in my relationship with God, and decide on a path to achieve it.
As a good friend is always telling me: If not now… when?
February 13, 2013, Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent…let the reflection begin!